…holidays  =.=

I need some sleep and regular meals!!

Jesus ! Korean TV just came to our Korean Class. Everyone got a shock because there was the SBS Logo on the Camera…But it was KTV or something ( does somebody know this channel?). They will try to sell the footage to SBS. (NOOOOOOOOO !!!)

Seems that some of us who were interviewed had to sing Kpop-Songs. And I was standing in the middle of a group of very VERY BIG k-pop fans and they suddelny began to shout like crazy fangirls……

And I was filmed while speaking korean with a friend………………….

But the best thing:

And I’m on every footage….like a ghost haha.

..hate the moment, when you realize that someone is interested in you and you don’t. I hate it, when friends, good friends, suddenly show interest in you. It often happends to me…I dunno why.

I’m serious. For me, a good friendship ist more important, than a realationship that will end some day….

I don’t know why I think so, but I never trought in one of m realationship ” oh this is the one I’ll spend my life with”. I’m was more like: “Hm, let’s see how long it will last.”

Sometimes I think my attitude must be very dissapointing for other people. I don’t know how to explain it…I’m just weird when it comes to relationships…

For example, I called my last boyfriend by his name and not “honey” or something. He was sad about that. But I’m not like that. I don’t want this “fake/exaggerated happiness” and “I love you” “your’re my everything”.

I don’t really like romantic. I don’t know how to accapt compliments, because I always think they aren’t serious. Also they are always about the appearance…that sucks!

I dont’t like it when you call me 374034 times on my cellphone. I hate it! And I don’t want to say “i love you” like an “goodbye or hello” .

My last “Date” told me, that I behave like a guy and not like a woman who wants the mans attention. That could be true. That might be because I have a great pride. I don’t like drama.   

See? I’m weird.

I just want someone who I can share my interests with. Someone who knows what I’m talking about. Someone who I can share deep conversations with. Someone who I can laught with.

Just someone who has the “same stage of mind” (don’t know if you write it like that in english” .

But anyways. I think I’m not suitable for a realtinship. The otherone will always be dissapointed in me because I’m not like a normal person in a realtionship.

But…don’t get me wrong. I don’t want to change the way I am. I just want other people to understand me. Understand me and how I express my feelings and how I DON’T DO it. 

And for now…..friends who understand me.

hmm… well …random post.

…you should not say in our korean class.

“Sorry sorry”

“lollipop”

“bad boy”

“ring ding dong”

“hello”

“heartbeat”

“high”

“bad”

“airbag”

………………

Some guys would probably start sining and go crazy !

Today my grandpa showed me a old letter from his father.

His father wrote this letter in his last moments at the hospital. He was there because of the war. Something was wrong with his kidneys.

One day before he died my gradpa and his mum visited him in the hospital in Prag and his father was smiling and said he would return soon.

My gradpa was only 9 years old at that time and believed that his father would return soon.

But he wasn’t…he died the next day.

So my grandpa and is mum were all alone. They dind’t had any other relatives.

I had to cry when my gradpa showed me the farewell letter where you could see tears on the paper…

His father was crying while writing this letter and the beautiful word to his familiy.

I can’t imagine how this has to feel like. When you know you’ll die soon and that you’ll never see your familie again. When you don’t have time to see your beloved ones again and say goodbye to them from face to face. So the last thing you are able do is...to write a letter.

it’s so sad…

but THAT IS life.

Nowerdays everyone is living a peaceful and nice life. Having parents is almost normal. Having grandparents is something even annoying.

When your boyfried breaks up with you , you behave like the world is going down.

When you fight with your mum because she told you, you have to help more in the household, you call it ” serious family problems”.

When you don’t have enough money to buy the newest Iphone, you feel poor and pity yourself. Mabye you’ll complain to your parents.

Maybe you feel depressed, because your life isn’t that exciting as you trought it’ll be like.

Maybe you feel lonley, because some friend isn’t answering his phone…

You complain and complain…..though, you have everything important.

BUT NOW consider how this father felt…

Or how millions of people felt in the time of the war. Or how millions of peole feel today in poor areas in Africa or China.

I just want to say:

SHUT THE FUCK UP AND STOP COMPLAINING!!

I’m sick of it!

My korean teacher told me(and the WHOLE class), that her son saw my korean handwriting and laught about it….

Yesterday I went to karaoke or  노래방 or カラオケ (lol)  with friends!

It was a lot of fun!

At first they were like:

“Nobody is that good at singing….so don’t worry!”

But when they started to sing there songs (english, chinese, korean, rap, songs….)

I was like

They were (almost) all  DAMN good at singing!!!

I could only

But then it was my turn to sing…..

I absolutly can’t sing….so I danced…and well…did my best! 

I really  have no talent at all…

But…

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sry guys…I’m bored and I’m gonna post  a lot of ramdom shit today haha

” Were you today by chance at the Underground-station blablabla at 11 o’clock in the moring and eating a mandarin?”

o.O Yes I was….

It’s a little bit creepy….I throught nobody was watching me….

I was propably looking like that:

or like that…

Dear stranger, I’m sorry that u had to see something like this!

Next time just look away! haha.

Oh jesus…

I have already to much stuff to do!!!

But I don’t want to get up, it’s fucking cold outside -.-

I just want to lay  in my warm bed with my laptop and scroll trough Tumblr!

AND HELL YEAH!…. that’s exacly what I’m gonna do the whole day today!

There is one street in Frankfurt full of expensive brand shops called  The” Goethestraße”

There are all big lables/brands such as chanel, lui vuitton, visace, Tiffany &co, prade…etc.

Today I walked through this street and I saw a group of asians who went out of a shop with their hands full of bags with brand names on it.

I just stared at them and wondered how much money they had spend.

(I had to be a thousand times more than I have spend im my entired life haha)

And than I looked down on me. On my old shoes and my washed-out jeans….

LIFE IS NOT FAIR LOL

I want to be rich and stylich like those guys too! .___.

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Don’t missunderstand me. I happy with my life the way it is….money isn’t everything for me.

I just would be happy if I would be able to go shopping in this street. (Maybe some day lol)

omg my english got so bad xD Sorry for that!