..hate the moment, when you realize that someone is interested in you and you don’t. I hate it, when friends, good friends, suddenly show interest in you. It often happends to me…I dunno why.

I’m serious. For me, a good friendship ist more important, than a realationship that will end some day….

I don’t know why I think so, but I never trought in one of m realationship ” oh this is the one I’ll spend my life with”. I’m was more like: “Hm, let’s see how long it will last.”

Sometimes I think my attitude must be very dissapointing for other people. I don’t know how to explain it…I’m just weird when it comes to relationships…

For example, I called my last boyfriend by his name and not “honey” or something. He was sad about that. But I’m not like that. I don’t want this “fake/exaggerated happiness” and “I love you” “your’re my everything”.

I don’t really like romantic. I don’t know how to accapt compliments, because I always think they aren’t serious. Also they are always about the appearance…that sucks!

I dont’t like it when you call me 374034 times on my cellphone. I hate it! And I don’t want to say “i love you” like an “goodbye or hello” .

My last “Date” told me, that I behave like a guy and not like a woman who wants the mans attention. That could be true. That might be because I have a great pride. I don’t like drama.   

See? I’m weird.

I just want someone who I can share my interests with. Someone who knows what I’m talking about. Someone who I can share deep conversations with. Someone who I can laught with.

Just someone who has the “same stage of mind” (don’t know if you write it like that in english” .

But anyways. I think I’m not suitable for a realtinship. The otherone will always be dissapointed in me because I’m not like a normal person in a realtionship.

But…don’t get me wrong. I don’t want to change the way I am. I just want other people to understand me. Understand me and how I express my feelings and how I DON’T DO it. 

And for now…..friends who understand me.

hmm… well …random post.